Monthly Archives: June 2013



I had an aunt’s funeral and a nephew’s graduation all in one day.  WOW, what a range of emotions.  This aunt was my mom’s sister.  She passed away from lung cancer.  My mom helped take care of another sister who passed away from lung cancer in 2000.  And she then took care of my dad who passed away from lung cancer in 2010.

My mom has been here for me when I was flat on my back for five weeks at a time.  She came everyday.  She heard me say that if I took the whole bottle of pain pills maybe the pain would go away.  That scared her.  Part of it was the meds talking, but part of it really was me.

People get daily aches and pains.  That is like having your stove burner turned to low.  People get migraines.  That is like having the burner turned to medium.  People get RA flares and Sciatic shoots.  That is like having the burner turned to high.  When my Sciatic nerve was the worst, it was like laying in water and getting electrocuted and being in a fire at the same time.  There are no words to adequately describe it.  You don’t know that pain until you go through it yourself.

When people ask me how I am, I tell them good.  Those that have known some pain ask me how I really am.  I know they really want to know!


I’m Still Here


flare bingo

I found this on the internet, hee hee!

It has been awhile since I have posted.  I can’t say that I have been really busy.  I went to the doctor after I had gotten another steroid shot in my back.  It did not work, so he gave me a nerve pill (Gabapentin).  Boy, what a trip that was.  I got very sad and cried all day.  I think I took the medicine for two weeks until I read the side effects on the internet.  One of them was depression.  I have been sad before, but not VERY sad.  I can see why some people commit suicide.  Pain will mess with your head, but pain and meds, that is a whole new ballgame!

The meds are out of my system now.  I am back to my silly self again.  I still have the pain, but would much rather have it than the other.  It is supposed to rain most of the week here, with some very bad storms.  I really can tell it in my hands (RA).  Last night my foot was really aching, not just the toes, but my whole foot!

Oh well, at least I can walk.  For that I am very thankful!!