PAIN, PAIN GO AWAY

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I had an aunt’s funeral and a nephew’s graduation all in one day.  WOW, what a range of emotions.  This aunt was my mom’s sister.  She passed away from lung cancer.  My mom helped take care of another sister who passed away from lung cancer in 2000.  And she then took care of my dad who passed away from lung cancer in 2010.

My mom has been here for me when I was flat on my back for five weeks at a time.  She came everyday.  She heard me say that if I took the whole bottle of pain pills maybe the pain would go away.  That scared her.  Part of it was the meds talking, but part of it really was me.

People get daily aches and pains.  That is like having your stove burner turned to low.  People get migraines.  That is like having the burner turned to medium.  People get RA flares and Sciatic shoots.  That is like having the burner turned to high.  When my Sciatic nerve was the worst, it was like laying in water and getting electrocuted and being in a fire at the same time.  There are no words to adequately describe it.  You don’t know that pain until you go through it yourself.

When people ask me how I am, I tell them good.  Those that have known some pain ask me how I really am.  I know they really want to know!

I’m Still Here

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I found this on the internet, hee hee!

It has been awhile since I have posted.  I can’t say that I have been really busy.  I went to the doctor after I had gotten another steroid shot in my back.  It did not work, so he gave me a nerve pill (Gabapentin).  Boy, what a trip that was.  I got very sad and cried all day.  I think I took the medicine for two weeks until I read the side effects on the internet.  One of them was depression.  I have been sad before, but not VERY sad.  I can see why some people commit suicide.  Pain will mess with your head, but pain and meds, that is a whole new ballgame!

The meds are out of my system now.  I am back to my silly self again.  I still have the pain, but would much rather have it than the other.  It is supposed to rain most of the week here, with some very bad storms.  I really can tell it in my hands (RA).  Last night my foot was really aching, not just the toes, but my whole foot!

Oh well, at least I can walk.  For that I am very thankful!!

The Earth Laughs in Flowers

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“The earth laughs in flowers.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson

I love all the flowers that have bloomed here lately. My lilac bushes have opened up and they look beautiful.

My RA hasn’t been too bad. Today my hands are aching a bit. I have been kind of busy though. My Aunt passed away and I made her photo boards, plus I have posted a lot of items on eBay. It is good to be busy!

ORIOLES

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I had put my Hummingbird feeders out a couple of weeks ago. My sister-in-law saw some in her yard already. On Saturday I noticed that quite a lot of the Hummingbird solution was gone from one feeder. I looked at the concrete under the feeder and saw that it was sticky and wet. The only culprit to make that kind of mess is an Oriole.

I let my dog out a little while ago and sat under the canopy on our patio to soak up some sun on my RA hands. As I sat there with my eyes closed I heard a bird talking to me. I opened my eyes and there was an Oriole about five feet from me. He was giving me what for! He either didn’t want me out there or I was too close to “his feeder.” They are too big for the Hummingbird feeders and tilt it too far, that is why so much solution is missing.

He is welcome though. I love watching the pretty birds!!

LIFE WORTH LIVING

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“Life is worth living as long as there’s a laugh in it.”
― L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables

My mom can tell when I am hurting because I get quiet. I usually like to smile and laugh. I like to laugh out loud!

Find something to make you laugh or chuckle. I like those commercials with the children. The one with the little girl trying to describe the difference between less and more. And the one with the little boy asking about what the animals would be made out of on the candy island.

Find a laugh in your daily life!

LAUGH

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“Those who do not know how to weep with their whole heart don’t know how to laugh either”
― Golda Meir

This past Sunday when I woke up my left knee was swollen so large I couldn’t bend my leg or straighten it out all the way. I felt really run down the rest of the week. Thursday night I finally felt better and had some energy, but my right ankle was killing me. Today it is both knees. I cried quite a bit this week.

I need to laugh. I need a belly wrenching, tear jerking laugh. I can do that kind of laugh with only a couple of people. The kind of laugh when tears come from your eyes until you can’t see and you laugh so hard you can hardly breathe. Laughter really is good for the soul.

THIS IS ALL NEW TO ME

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I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis in February of 2012. My great aunt had it and my dad’s cousin has it. My mom tells me that they told my great aunt to take aspirin and move to a warmer climate. She became all crippled up.

I knew what you could look like with RA, but I had no idea what you could feel like. I have been looking on Pinterest for sayings about RA and pain. I am sorry that there are so many people who have it, but I am also glad that they share their feelings. I am glad to know that there are other people thinking and feeling the same things I am.

I also have chronic back pain. I have had surgery once and will probably need another one here soon. I want to stay upbeat and happy as much as I can during all of this. I hope I can encourage someone else.